i think it's suffice to say the last few entries showed the emotional vomit i had been feeling. so many negative factors which contributed to the emotional drainage. being a control freak that i am, it pains me so not to be in the driver's seat.
i don't think anybody could quite discern the pain i was going through. heck, i don't think anyone actually knew i was going through the most bitter moment i ever knew i had to go through. as i quote from a dear friend, i am a perfectionaist and i don't expect nothing but the best from myself. and yet time and time again i fail to meet the expectation.
i screwed up.
but thanx to people who actually care, i came out of it, ready again to go through whatever shit that's being thrown at me.
:: black widow 9/14/2007 11:32:00 PM [+] ::
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