:: Emotional Void ::

:: Thursday, June 09, 2005 ::

*black widow*

(The land of the dead.)

my comments link has been dead for a while. took me ages to get it right. and so now i hav the freakin boring comments link. no mood or mental energy to dabble with all this html crap.
so it shall do for now.

im sick and tired of this blog layout actually. and so that shall be in my list of things to do...
the irony is i am dying of boredom and yet i hav done absolutely nothing to change that fact!
i cant understand myself sometimes (nah, make that all the time)
which explains why i think nobody understands me. (fully at least)

tempers flying all over, i dont have the patience to think through all the rationalities that exist in choices in life.
i hav been behaving rationally all my life. for once, juz fuck it! who cares if i do the right or wrong thing in life?
and who cares what people thing of me? i am who i am. dont like it? run along then...

nobody is forcing you to stick around anyway

which brings me to the topic of lies. aah..sure i am no angel. i lie sometimes. but promises..those i keep it sacred.
as i quote from myself 'do not make promises you know you can't keep'
hell, if you cant keep those promises, at least have the decency to apologize!
is 'sorry' the hardest word to say?
or has memory left you..and you wake up to a clean slate..not knowing what you say the day before?

questions i ask myself all the time..

oh well who am i to try to understand the innerworkings of others' mind. i cant even decipher my own.

:: black widow 6/09/2005 10:16:00 AM [+] ::
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