*black widow* thank utoall your encouraging comments to my last entry. will snap out of the depression. a slow process.... but will happen eventually.
i hate whining if im depressed. isolation is my best remedy. letting go thru words written down. i haven't been in a talking mood lately. don't expect anyone to notice. i try not to exude my negative energy to those around me.
received 'good' news yesterday. i surprise even myself with the reaction i gave. i felt so void..blank. do i feel happy? do i feel sad? tell me, damn it! (i hate it when i keep goin against myself...refusing to give a definite answer)
i'm still in my own world of dreams. i need to wake up and smell the freakin coffee!