:: Emotional Void ::

:: Thursday, April 24, 2003 ::

*black widow*

(Speech! speech! speech!)

i've been feelin all out of place the whole day. right now, i am attempting to enjoy the last few hours of bein 20. gosh! do i sound dramatic or wat. wats the big deal anyway..so i'm getting a year older. big deal!

apparently, those are not the words playing in my head. it IS a big deal to me. it's not like any other birthdays i hav gone through. this time, it juz seem more...'smack in the face'. i am moving on to that phase in my life where it's gonna be '20-something' from now on.

turning 21 seems oh-so-adult. it will obviously bring in more responsiblities. i've got to be much more focus in my life from now on.(i wonder how the hell that is gonna happen...but i will try!;))
it wont be long before my mum wil start bugging me to get married and stuff....(i shudder at the thought) but that's a fact i cant deny. i always seem to take the easy way out....yep, by denying everything..always in denial.
anyway, i digress.
in other words, one word to describe how i feel about turning 21?.......scaryyyyyy.....

no birthday celebration for me tomorrow. but i hav got the day all planned out. gonna spend a wholesome time with myself. yep, it's all about me,myself and i.;)

goodnite everyone!

:: black widow 4/24/2003 10:38:00 PM [+] ::
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