:: Emotional Void ::

:: Monday, October 07, 2002 ::

*black widow*

(I am at dat gutsy shit again..) *black widow*
Before i try to elaborate more bout the 'topic' for today...juz wanna confirm the fact dat yes, it is 614am.and surprise..surprise, i am awake!
Read the newspaper recently (yesterday i think..dunno, cant think well so early in the mornin) and there was this story bout this lady they decided to call 'black widow'. She supposedly has murdered 2 husbands of hers and concealed it by saying dat they died of accidents.......disturbing news indeed.

Anyway, back on track. Yesterday.....well it is actually 6th of oct since it was already the midnite of 5th oct. (u know wat i mean..), i got a bit disturbed. somethin has been bugging me for the whole of last week. yup, the 'new fren'. i got so worked up and pissed over it. (imagine me at 12+ in the morning tossing and turning in my bed thinkin bout it)

so i decided to find out the reason. needed to ask someone's opinion and ill came to mind. we messaged back and forth and eventually at nearly 1am, it stopped abruptly. turned out ill fell asleep on me. it has been hard on u, babe.=)
found out she fell asleep on me when she eventually messaged me at 730am. I knew for a fact dat i hav to know why..or else i wil drive myself nuts. deep inside, i knew dat at dat midnite, i was gonna msg him no matter wat.

so at 8am, i did it. (composed the msg at midnite).....guess dat midnite was the crucial hour huh. asked if he was angry at me. he said dat is not possible since i didnt do anythin wrong.
dat msg marks the start of my 'freedom'. wont hav all this bothering questions hovering my head....

:: black widow 10/07/2002 06:37:00 AM [+] ::
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