:: Emotional Void ::

:: Wednesday, November 06, 2002 ::

*black widow*

(void or another case of denials..??) *black widow*

met up with lyds for a while today. chatted for a while as i needed to get home to break fast. feel happy for her that she finally got a job. :)

chatted with a net fren of mine today (on icq).he's real nice...he's a student from the states. His name is alex. One of those pple whom i can chat and joke with for hours.

finally!!! its dat episode of 'home teams'...which all the babes hav been waitin for. haha. i must say the show has a weird impact on me. it got me interested to know more bout the family. zul and rafili were great......in silat. ;) haha...u guys must be wondering if i am finally gonna break down this wall between me and guys...and finally admit dat zul or rafili is darn cute. right? right?

sadly..it didnt happen. instead i wuz scrutinising the show and actually noticed some irrelevant parts of the show....like how rafili used his left hand to scoop some food. asked hida if he is left-handed. hehe..i must hav sounded lame.

but it got me thinkin. am i really void of emotions? or maybe i believe in it too much dat i hav psyched myself to believe dat its true...dat i am in denial, refusing to admit dat i do hav feelings for guys..some guys.
u know wat...i do notice guys..but its an emotion in me which is left real deep inside of me..dat it is rare for it to emerge out..

...but since it rarely emerges, the easiest way to describe it is dat i am void of emotions...at least for now....

:: black widow 11/06/2002 11:41:00 PM [+] ::
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